I had a hard time, not being able to go home last year, feeling like Christmas had come. It's just one day, and there is too much commercial hype around the celebration of Christ's birth, but it just felt like it passed too quickly.
This year, my roommates and I love to decorate the house - from Dollarama. We have been able to aquire three Christmas trees, one standing about 5 feet tall, the others less so. We have Christmas lights up, and we are blessed with some close friends to make the house feel cozy. The difficulty lies when all of my close friends who aren't established in Montreal, or who's extended family live in near-by cities leave for a few weeks to a month. And even more so, on the day of Christmas. Selfishly I hope that they too have to (or get to) stay in the city.
At 28, I felt like I needed the freedom to be able to celebrate with the 'family' I had in Montreal and the life I'd created for myself. Little did I consider how much the feeling of belonging changes when those I hold dear leave for the holidays. I guess I long for a day that the family I hold close is my own family.
In hopes of having many opportunities to spend time with close friends, I am compiling a list of baked goods that remind me of my childhood and innocent approach to Christ's Birth Celebration.
http://dcmoms.tripod.com/Recipes/cookie_recipe.html
http://allrecipes.com/recipe/peanut-butter-marshmallow-squares/
http://www.motherearthliving.com/cooking-methods/a-gingerbread-house.aspx
However, whenever I'm home, I'm begging my mother to stop creating more things, and to just spend the few hours we have together talking or at least together! I might have to take my own advice and not get lost in the performance.
Well, Happy End of November (and movember!)
Rebecca
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